Dear people we love!
Today I was watching Josh draw a picture of himself standing outside. As he was finishing up he said, "Now I just need to remember to add the SUN!" Then he added a big bright yellow sun in the corner of the page. Children never seem to forget that the sun is always there shining down on us! Summer time looks like it's here to stay, and I wanted to share some of the many ways we are experiencing sunshine in our house!
Caleb is almost 6 months old! He looks more and more like his big brothers every day!. He is such a source of sunshine for our little family!
His hair keeps getting lighter each time I cut it. His hair puffs up just like a dandelion! We like to blow on his fuzzy little head and make a wish! It's just like wishing on a fluffy white dandelion as you blow the seeds into the air! We feel like so many of our wishes have been heard and granted!
Caleb loves to be outside with his brothers! His little cheeks turn rosy red in the warm summer air, and he delights in hearing Josh and Matthew playing around him. The mosquitoes like to swarm all around me and eat me alive- but those pesky critters don't even touch Caleb- they must know that he's much too special to munch on, or that he has a mommy who won't let anything pesky come near him:)
Caleb loves to be held right underneath my heart. Sometimes it seems like we share the same heart beat.
Josh and Matthew have their sweet ways of sharing their hearts with Caleb. Josh insists that he can tell what Caleb is saying when he gurgles and cooes--He'll tell us that Caleb says things like: "I sure enjoy being on the earth with my family" and "There are some new toys are TOYS R US that you need to check out" Josh and Caleb have the sweetest eternal bond with one another. Matthew loves to kiss Caleb's "kissables" (cheeks). Matthew can't be near Caleb with out wanting to stroke his forehead, rub his fuzzy hair, and tickle his tummy. Whenever Matthew returns home from an outing, he'll run up to Caleb and say, "Did ya miss me?" Matthew adores Caleb, and Caleb just loves having him near by.
Caleb no longer seems to need his oxygen so we've been able to take him on car rides and for longer walks in the neighborhood. We've had some fun walks to the park, and have enjoyed going to grandma's house. His aunts and uncles love getting to spend time with him.
My sister Ashley just gave me a sculpture she made of a mom's hand with a baby hand resting on top of it. She had been working on it at school so that she could have something special to give to me. Some of the fingers had broken off of mom's hand and she expressed her frustration at the fingers not staying attached. She didn't want to give me a gift that was broken. Then she realized that she should go ahead and give me the gift because she knew it would be even more special to me the way that it was. She realized it was beautiful just the way it had turned out. When I look at Ashley's creation, I love to see that the baby's hand is completely in tact. It is that small hand that is calmly resting on those bigger broken fingers. Caleb isn't broken, he is so beautiful and full of love. He is the one who heals me in those moments that I feel a little bit broken inside. I'm so thankful for the SUN and the warmth we feel in our little family every day. Thank you for the warmth and kindness you send to us in so many ways.
Saturday, June 25, 2005
Wednesday, June 1, 2005
June pictures
(from my journal)...Caleb you warm my heart! Everything about you adds another twinkle to my eye. Sometimes I worry when you aren't feeling well, or you are having lots of siezures, and I wish there was more that I could do... but you always seem to help me know that loving you is enough. You are so small, yet you are so strong... I am so proud of you
Josh and Matthew like to goof off with Caleb's monitor wires!
Josh and Matthew like to goof off with Caleb's monitor wires!
Thursday, May 5, 2005
May 5, 2005
Dear friends we love!
Spring has made a grand appearance today after days of clouds and rain! I just got back from a walk with little Caleb and couldn't resist taking a moment to let you know how he is doing. I love taking Caleb outside to feel the sunshine and the springtime breeze. He gets so cozy in his stroller and usually falls right to sleep.
A few weeks ago I enjoyed celebrating my birthday, and do you know what???....Birthday wishes really do come true! My greatest wish was to celebrate with all 3 of my little boys. Celebrating with Caleb, Josh and Matthew was truly a birthday wish granted!
Josh and Matthew's new favorite thing to do with Caleb is "ultimate kissing festivals!" They'll call out, "one...two...three....ULTIMATE KISSING FESTIVAL!!!" Then they'll kiss Caleb a million times all over his little body! Matthew loves to take baths with Caleb and he'll hold Caleb's head in his lap while I lather him all up with soapy bubbles. Whenever I'm rocking Caleb in the rocking chair, Matthew likes to jump on my lap as well so we can do
"two-boy holding."
Josh knows how to turn off Caleb's "beeps" and is a great helper when I can't quite get there in time! Josh always finds quiet moments each day to snuggle and visit with Caleb. In his prayers he always says, "I'm so glad that Caleb could come to earth-I sure enjoy being with Caleb." I know that Heavenly Father hears the prayers of big brothers.
Caleb just loves being in the middle of whatever our family is doing. He would much rather be with us than under his oxygen tent, and now he can be away from his oxygen most of the time! He took his first car trip to Grandma and Grandpa Baadsgaard's house and was able to spend some time with his grandparents, aunts and uncles. It was our first outing together as a whole family since December! It was so fun, and Josh and Matthew were just tickled to see Caleb in his car seat.
Caleb's pediatrician is still coming to our home every few weeks to visit him. We are working with him to see how we can best help Caleb for the future. He is such a neat doctor and sees Caleb with the same hopeful heart that we do. We are looking into getting a shunt placed in his head to help regulate the fluid and his head growth. We are also looking into getting a feeding tube placed in his tummy so he won't always have to have one in his mouth and throat. We are thrilled that we are at a point where we get to have a new chapter in Caleb's story, yet it is still really tender to think about going back to the hospital. Caleb is showing us, though, that he wants to do all he can!! He loves to wiggle his little body and has really strong muscles! He works so hard to hold his head up and look around. He has the cutest giggle and a sweet little voice that calls me every morning to come and get him!
On Mother's day I was asked in primary what my favorite part of being a mom is. My first thought was spending the morning with my little boys. Matthew usually makes his appearance first. He says MAMMA!!!! Then gives me the "tightest hug in the world" He'll crawl into bed with me and put his toes right under me because they're "told" (cold). Josh joins us next and we always say "good morning sunshine" because Josh's smile warms us from head to toe. Then Caleb will start to call us with his sweet baby voice until he can come and snuggle with us. Life doesn't get much sweeter than those little moments of snuggling in between being asleep and being fully awake.
Spring has made a grand appearance today after days of clouds and rain! I just got back from a walk with little Caleb and couldn't resist taking a moment to let you know how he is doing. I love taking Caleb outside to feel the sunshine and the springtime breeze. He gets so cozy in his stroller and usually falls right to sleep.
A few weeks ago I enjoyed celebrating my birthday, and do you know what???....Birthday wishes really do come true! My greatest wish was to celebrate with all 3 of my little boys. Celebrating with Caleb, Josh and Matthew was truly a birthday wish granted!
Josh and Matthew's new favorite thing to do with Caleb is "ultimate kissing festivals!" They'll call out, "one...two...three....ULTIMATE KISSING FESTIVAL!!!" Then they'll kiss Caleb a million times all over his little body! Matthew loves to take baths with Caleb and he'll hold Caleb's head in his lap while I lather him all up with soapy bubbles. Whenever I'm rocking Caleb in the rocking chair, Matthew likes to jump on my lap as well so we can do
"two-boy holding."
Josh knows how to turn off Caleb's "beeps" and is a great helper when I can't quite get there in time! Josh always finds quiet moments each day to snuggle and visit with Caleb. In his prayers he always says, "I'm so glad that Caleb could come to earth-I sure enjoy being with Caleb." I know that Heavenly Father hears the prayers of big brothers.
Caleb just loves being in the middle of whatever our family is doing. He would much rather be with us than under his oxygen tent, and now he can be away from his oxygen most of the time! He took his first car trip to Grandma and Grandpa Baadsgaard's house and was able to spend some time with his grandparents, aunts and uncles. It was our first outing together as a whole family since December! It was so fun, and Josh and Matthew were just tickled to see Caleb in his car seat.
Caleb's pediatrician is still coming to our home every few weeks to visit him. We are working with him to see how we can best help Caleb for the future. He is such a neat doctor and sees Caleb with the same hopeful heart that we do. We are looking into getting a shunt placed in his head to help regulate the fluid and his head growth. We are also looking into getting a feeding tube placed in his tummy so he won't always have to have one in his mouth and throat. We are thrilled that we are at a point where we get to have a new chapter in Caleb's story, yet it is still really tender to think about going back to the hospital. Caleb is showing us, though, that he wants to do all he can!! He loves to wiggle his little body and has really strong muscles! He works so hard to hold his head up and look around. He has the cutest giggle and a sweet little voice that calls me every morning to come and get him!
On Mother's day I was asked in primary what my favorite part of being a mom is. My first thought was spending the morning with my little boys. Matthew usually makes his appearance first. He says MAMMA!!!! Then gives me the "tightest hug in the world" He'll crawl into bed with me and put his toes right under me because they're "told" (cold). Josh joins us next and we always say "good morning sunshine" because Josh's smile warms us from head to toe. Then Caleb will start to call us with his sweet baby voice until he can come and snuggle with us. Life doesn't get much sweeter than those little moments of snuggling in between being asleep and being fully awake.
Sunday, May 1, 2005
April/May pictures
Caleb's first haircut! It took me a long time to cut Caleb's hair. When he was born the hospice team gave me an envelope that I could put a lock of hair in after he passed away, so my mind associated cutting his hair with saying goodbye. Luckily, I got to cut his hair just because it was getting too fluffy! He looks so cute, and I only got teary because it was another "first" for him!
Matthew shares his favorite "strechy critters" in silly ways!
Monday, April 11, 2005
April 11, 2005
Our dear family and friends,
Three months ago we were in the hospital preparing to bring Caleb home to spend his final days with us. Last week, Caleb celebrated his 3 month birthday! Words can hardly express the gratitude we feel for such a precious gift!
Caleb's whole body just radiates with love! When I hold him, I just love how his sweet little body melts right into mine. I love the quiet moments I spend rocking Caleb and gazing at his face. I love to listen to him breathing, and he loves it when I lay by him and put my face right up against his. I just love his long fingers, and I am tickled every time his little hand finds mine and rests there. I know that the love I feel for him began long before he was reunited with us here. When I am with my little boys, I remember what Heaven felt like. Caleb reminds me each day that the most important things in our lives are those that we hold in our arms, in our laps, and in our hearts...
A few days ago I gave Caleb his first hair cut! I couldn't stop giggling while I was turning his head and buzzing up the sides. When I finished, I gave him a bath and smothered him with lotion and kisses. As I took a few "first hair-cut" pictures, I couldn't hold back the tears that brought me to my knees to thank Heavenly Father for another sweet moment with my little boy.
Josh and Matthew adore their baby brother! They include him in all of their brother adventure stories! They love to lay by him and put their cheeks right next to his. Matthew enjoys putting his stretchy bugs on Caleb's head for me to find, and Josh can always sooth Caleb by gently stroking the side of his face while he talks to him.
As I've reflected on the tears, the tenderness, the gratitude and joy that the past 3 months has brought, I think of some of my new favorite scriptures:
Psalm 30:5..."weeping may endure for a night, but joy cometh in the morning."
Psalm 30:11-12 "Thou hast turned for me my mourning into dancing: thou hast put off my sackcloth and girded me with gladness. To the end that my glory may sing praise to thee, and not be silent. O Lord my God, I will give thanks unto thee forever.
Caleb's first Easter. What sweet reflections we have about the joys of resurrection.
Caleb is so loved by his brothers. We even caught a smile on camera on this special day!
Three months ago we were in the hospital preparing to bring Caleb home to spend his final days with us. Last week, Caleb celebrated his 3 month birthday! Words can hardly express the gratitude we feel for such a precious gift!
Caleb's whole body just radiates with love! When I hold him, I just love how his sweet little body melts right into mine. I love the quiet moments I spend rocking Caleb and gazing at his face. I love to listen to him breathing, and he loves it when I lay by him and put my face right up against his. I just love his long fingers, and I am tickled every time his little hand finds mine and rests there. I know that the love I feel for him began long before he was reunited with us here. When I am with my little boys, I remember what Heaven felt like. Caleb reminds me each day that the most important things in our lives are those that we hold in our arms, in our laps, and in our hearts...
A few days ago I gave Caleb his first hair cut! I couldn't stop giggling while I was turning his head and buzzing up the sides. When I finished, I gave him a bath and smothered him with lotion and kisses. As I took a few "first hair-cut" pictures, I couldn't hold back the tears that brought me to my knees to thank Heavenly Father for another sweet moment with my little boy.
Josh and Matthew adore their baby brother! They include him in all of their brother adventure stories! They love to lay by him and put their cheeks right next to his. Matthew enjoys putting his stretchy bugs on Caleb's head for me to find, and Josh can always sooth Caleb by gently stroking the side of his face while he talks to him.
As I've reflected on the tears, the tenderness, the gratitude and joy that the past 3 months has brought, I think of some of my new favorite scriptures:
Psalm 30:5..."weeping may endure for a night, but joy cometh in the morning."
Psalm 30:11-12 "Thou hast turned for me my mourning into dancing: thou hast put off my sackcloth and girded me with gladness. To the end that my glory may sing praise to thee, and not be silent. O Lord my God, I will give thanks unto thee forever.
Caleb's first Easter. What sweet reflections we have about the joys of resurrection.
Caleb is so loved by his brothers. We even caught a smile on camera on this special day!
Friday, April 1, 2005
April 2005
Caleb's first trip to the park! We had our monitors in tow and I just manually syringed his feeding to him while we were there. Josh and Matthew were tickled to have a park outing all together!
Caleb's first trip in the car since coming home from the hospital. After almost 4 months on oxygen, he seems like he does okay without it, so we decided to visit grandma and grandpa! It was the first time we have gone anywhere as a whole family since he was born!
I took a bunch of pictures of Caleb in his blessing outfit because it was huge on him when we blessed him in the hospital. He looks just like an angel!
Brother's just have to HUG!
Caleb's first trip in the car since coming home from the hospital. After almost 4 months on oxygen, he seems like he does okay without it, so we decided to visit grandma and grandpa! It was the first time we have gone anywhere as a whole family since he was born!
I took a bunch of pictures of Caleb in his blessing outfit because it was huge on him when we blessed him in the hospital. He looks just like an angel!
Brother's just have to HUG!
Sunday, March 20, 2005
Pictures in march
(from my journal) We have been speaking to the doctor about your siezures and will have to increase your dosage. I am a little bit sad inside becuase I don't want to see you struggle. The doctor says you may need to get a shunt in the future.
Josh and Matthew just love you! Matthew helps you say your prayers at night, and he says that Jesus peeks in our windows. Josh was singing a song in your ear the other day that kept repeating "I love my baby brother..."
Josh and Matthew just love you! Matthew helps you say your prayers at night, and he says that Jesus peeks in our windows. Josh was singing a song in your ear the other day that kept repeating "I love my baby brother..."
Saturday, March 19, 2005
March 19, 2005
Hi to our wonderful Family and friends!
I thought I'd take a minute on this Sunny spring day to let you know how our little Caleb is doing! He is full of sunshine and just delights us every day! Caleb continues to surprise his medical friends as he continues to grow and develop in his given circumstances. He now weighs 9 pounds and 4 ounces and fits so cute in his newborn clothes now! He celebrated his 10 week old birthday on St. Patrick's day so Josh and Matthew helped me make a green birthday cake to celebrate! We've had some beautiful spring days where I decided to un hook Caleb from his monitors to take him outside to feel the sunshine on his face and hear the birds singing. He loved it, and it was so fun to watch his fluffy hair blowing in the breeze.
Caleb loves to have his family around him; it is so precious to see how patient he is with Josh and Matthew as they love and snuggle him. Josh often crawls right into Caleb's crib to hug him and soothe him if he's feeling sad. Caleb just loves it! Matthew new favorite song to sing to him is "I'm trying to be like Jesus." They adore their brother and they both like to make sure that Caleb has a sword close at hand like his older brothers! We like to unhook Caleb from his monitors so he can join us for breakfast and this morning the boys were tickled to have me bring him into my bedroom so we could all watch Saturday morning cartoons in my bed. Caleb just loves to be held and snuggled! He will let us hold him for an hour or two at a time -even away from his oxygen! Caleb's whole body just radiates with love and we're so thankful he likes us to hug and squeeze him as much as we want to.
Having Caleb with us is like having a little piece of Heaven in our home. When Josh prays he always says "I'm so thankful that we have Caleb, I sure enjoy having Caleb in our family" This is such a joyful season where our time is taken up by the things that matter the most. Our hearts are tender yet they are full of joy and delight!
I love the words, "Where is Heaven? Is it very far?.... when you're with the ones you love it's right where you are!"
I thought I'd take a minute on this Sunny spring day to let you know how our little Caleb is doing! He is full of sunshine and just delights us every day! Caleb continues to surprise his medical friends as he continues to grow and develop in his given circumstances. He now weighs 9 pounds and 4 ounces and fits so cute in his newborn clothes now! He celebrated his 10 week old birthday on St. Patrick's day so Josh and Matthew helped me make a green birthday cake to celebrate! We've had some beautiful spring days where I decided to un hook Caleb from his monitors to take him outside to feel the sunshine on his face and hear the birds singing. He loved it, and it was so fun to watch his fluffy hair blowing in the breeze.
Caleb loves to have his family around him; it is so precious to see how patient he is with Josh and Matthew as they love and snuggle him. Josh often crawls right into Caleb's crib to hug him and soothe him if he's feeling sad. Caleb just loves it! Matthew new favorite song to sing to him is "I'm trying to be like Jesus." They adore their brother and they both like to make sure that Caleb has a sword close at hand like his older brothers! We like to unhook Caleb from his monitors so he can join us for breakfast and this morning the boys were tickled to have me bring him into my bedroom so we could all watch Saturday morning cartoons in my bed. Caleb just loves to be held and snuggled! He will let us hold him for an hour or two at a time -even away from his oxygen! Caleb's whole body just radiates with love and we're so thankful he likes us to hug and squeeze him as much as we want to.
Having Caleb with us is like having a little piece of Heaven in our home. When Josh prays he always says "I'm so thankful that we have Caleb, I sure enjoy having Caleb in our family" This is such a joyful season where our time is taken up by the things that matter the most. Our hearts are tender yet they are full of joy and delight!
I love the words, "Where is Heaven? Is it very far?.... when you're with the ones you love it's right where you are!"
Tuesday, March 1, 2005
A poem from uncle Joseph
Gifts from Caleb (2005)
Having an eye single to the glory of God
Caleb has kept us places where our feet are shod.
With a sparkle that shines towards eternity
Caleb shines a light giving us the gift of certainty.
With little hands to heal our weak and weary hearts
Caleb has reached out and touched us with Christ’s healing art.
As a small master painting a portrait so brilliantly
Caleb’s presence has greatly strengthened our testimonies.
Increasing our faith and making us sure
Caleb reminds us of a love that is pure.
Reaching out with arms open to embrace
Caleb with no doubt has Christ’s countenance upon his face.
Oh little Caleb we are so grateful for all that you give.
We are all so lucky for each day that you live.
Now we know of a greater love
With all the gifts you have brought from above.
The world may see you with little, but we see you with so much more
Our understanding is greater since you have opened the door.
Oh little Caleb, how we love you so
You love is helping us to understand a greater love we’ve all known.
Oh little Caleb be it known unto you
How great you are and the people like you are few.
By Joseph Baadsgaard (uncle)
Cozy Caleb
There's nothing as sweet as Caleb feet!
Having an eye single to the glory of God
Caleb has kept us places where our feet are shod.
With a sparkle that shines towards eternity
Caleb shines a light giving us the gift of certainty.
With little hands to heal our weak and weary hearts
Caleb has reached out and touched us with Christ’s healing art.
As a small master painting a portrait so brilliantly
Caleb’s presence has greatly strengthened our testimonies.
Increasing our faith and making us sure
Caleb reminds us of a love that is pure.
Reaching out with arms open to embrace
Caleb with no doubt has Christ’s countenance upon his face.
Oh little Caleb we are so grateful for all that you give.
We are all so lucky for each day that you live.
Now we know of a greater love
With all the gifts you have brought from above.
The world may see you with little, but we see you with so much more
Our understanding is greater since you have opened the door.
Oh little Caleb, how we love you so
You love is helping us to understand a greater love we’ve all known.
Oh little Caleb be it known unto you
How great you are and the people like you are few.
By Joseph Baadsgaard (uncle)
Cozy Caleb
There's nothing as sweet as Caleb feet!
Sweet moments with Caleb
We sure enjoy our special little boy!
This was the first time Caleb every went upstairs! He was able to be away from his oxygen for a little while. Josh and Matthew were so excited!
This was the first time Caleb every went upstairs! He was able to be away from his oxygen for a little while. Josh and Matthew were so excited!
Thursday, February 24, 2005
February 24, 2005
February 24, 2005
Hi our family and friends that we love!
Caleb is 7 weeks old today! He is doing well and now weighs 8 pounds 5 ounces! His little cheeks are getting chubby, and he's starting to grow into his skin! He is an absolute delight and we're so thankful you let us continue to share our sweetheart with you!
In our little family I have a birthday tradition of making up trivia questions for the birthday person- so here are a few "Caleb Trivia" questions you might not know:)
1. What are Josh's nicknames for Caleb?
Mister Caleb Bubbas (I'm not sure why- but he and Matthew call him "Bubbas" quite often:)
2. What are Matthew's nicknames for Caleb?
"Ta-wub" Bubbas Little Cay
3. What Color is Caleb's eye
BLUE
4. Who do Caleb's hands look like-- Mom or Dad?
MOM-- nice long fingers!
5. What are Caleb's favorite songs that the boys sing him?
I am a child of God
Families can be together forever
6. What does Matthew leave in Caleb's crib every day?
New toys for him to "play with"-- the other day I walked in and Caleb had a big rubber lizard laying across his tummy with the head right next to his. I knew Matthew had been visiting him!
7. What does Caleb's pediatrician call him?
His "little Israelite prince"-- and "Elder Caleb"
8. What does Josh bring to church with him so that he can check on Caleb whenever he feels worried about him?
A cell phone
9. Where does Caleb have the most hair?
In the back! He has a lot more hair than either of our other boys. On top, he has a nice little spike that the boys love to poke up and rub their faces on.
10. How many wires and tubes does Caleb have attached to him?
4- one on each side of his chest to monitor his breathing and heart rate- one feeding tube- and one sat monitor on his foot that monitors his oxygen saturation and heart rate.
11. Who does Caleb love the most?
All of you for loving and serving him and his family!!!!!!
Happy 7 week birthday Caleb!
Hi our family and friends that we love!
Caleb is 7 weeks old today! He is doing well and now weighs 8 pounds 5 ounces! His little cheeks are getting chubby, and he's starting to grow into his skin! He is an absolute delight and we're so thankful you let us continue to share our sweetheart with you!
In our little family I have a birthday tradition of making up trivia questions for the birthday person- so here are a few "Caleb Trivia" questions you might not know:)
1. What are Josh's nicknames for Caleb?
Mister Caleb Bubbas (I'm not sure why- but he and Matthew call him "Bubbas" quite often:)
2. What are Matthew's nicknames for Caleb?
"Ta-wub" Bubbas Little Cay
3. What Color is Caleb's eye
BLUE
4. Who do Caleb's hands look like-- Mom or Dad?
MOM-- nice long fingers!
5. What are Caleb's favorite songs that the boys sing him?
I am a child of God
Families can be together forever
6. What does Matthew leave in Caleb's crib every day?
New toys for him to "play with"-- the other day I walked in and Caleb had a big rubber lizard laying across his tummy with the head right next to his. I knew Matthew had been visiting him!
7. What does Caleb's pediatrician call him?
His "little Israelite prince"-- and "Elder Caleb"
8. What does Josh bring to church with him so that he can check on Caleb whenever he feels worried about him?
A cell phone
9. Where does Caleb have the most hair?
In the back! He has a lot more hair than either of our other boys. On top, he has a nice little spike that the boys love to poke up and rub their faces on.
10. How many wires and tubes does Caleb have attached to him?
4- one on each side of his chest to monitor his breathing and heart rate- one feeding tube- and one sat monitor on his foot that monitors his oxygen saturation and heart rate.
11. Who does Caleb love the most?
All of you for loving and serving him and his family!!!!!!
Happy 7 week birthday Caleb!
Tuesday, February 15, 2005
February 15, 2005
Hi our favorite family and friends,
Caleb is almost 6 weeks old! We truly cherish each day we have with him. Taking care of him doesn't feel like work, it feels like such a privilege. He is so beautiful and full of love. Our hearts are so full of love for him, and the love we feel in return from him is so amazing.
His doctors and nurses are amazed that he appears to be thriving given his circumstances! We have a sweet pediatrician who makes house calls to come and check on Caleb. He says "Caleb is just being loved into being here." Our hospice nurse has shared with her department how responsive Caleb is and how much he loves being loved. They are all amazed when they see how he Caleb responds to me. I think that Caleb and Heavenly Father know that it heals my heart to see that Caleb knows that I'm his mother.
The other day we unhooked Caleb from all of his monitors and his feeding tube. We put him in the real bathtub with his two brothers and let them all have a bath together! It was just priceless to see 'my 3 sons' all in the tub with one another. Josh and Matthew were tickled to have a bath with their baby brother, and Caleb loved it! His cute little body just floated in the water while I held his head and lathered him up!
Every Thursday we celebrate a birthday for Caleb as he turns 1 week older. Josh and Matthew love to celebrate with him and sing "Happy birthday." Yesterday they each taped a Valentine to Caleb's crib and sang "Happy Valentines Day to you!" Caleb is teaching us how wonderful it is to find the joy in each day and live in the present.
I was visiting with my mom recently, and we were discussing whether or not Caleb can see out of his sweet little eye. We both agreed that it didn't matter because Caleb can truly "see" more than we can. My mom later shared a scripture she found in Matthew 6:22
"The light of the body is the eye: if therefore thane eye be single, thy whole body shall be full of light."
I found a similar scripture in D&C 88:67
"And if your eye be single to my glory, your whole bodies shall be filled with light, and there shall be no darkness in you; and that body which is filled with light comprehended all things."
We are so thankful for our little miracle. The overwhelming love we feel for him gives us just a glimpse of the way that our Heavenly Father loves us. The tenderness of knowing our time with him will be limited is also surrounded by so much sweetness. I wish there was a "heart language" that could portray the sweetness that surrounds us as we watch our 3 boys love each other, as we feel Caleb's sweet little body in our arms, and as we feel the love that has filled our home to overflowing.
Thank you for "loving our little boy into being here" Thank you for loving our little family and our little Caleb. He is full of love and light!
Caleb is almost 6 weeks old! We truly cherish each day we have with him. Taking care of him doesn't feel like work, it feels like such a privilege. He is so beautiful and full of love. Our hearts are so full of love for him, and the love we feel in return from him is so amazing.
His doctors and nurses are amazed that he appears to be thriving given his circumstances! We have a sweet pediatrician who makes house calls to come and check on Caleb. He says "Caleb is just being loved into being here." Our hospice nurse has shared with her department how responsive Caleb is and how much he loves being loved. They are all amazed when they see how he Caleb responds to me. I think that Caleb and Heavenly Father know that it heals my heart to see that Caleb knows that I'm his mother.
The other day we unhooked Caleb from all of his monitors and his feeding tube. We put him in the real bathtub with his two brothers and let them all have a bath together! It was just priceless to see 'my 3 sons' all in the tub with one another. Josh and Matthew were tickled to have a bath with their baby brother, and Caleb loved it! His cute little body just floated in the water while I held his head and lathered him up!
Every Thursday we celebrate a birthday for Caleb as he turns 1 week older. Josh and Matthew love to celebrate with him and sing "Happy birthday." Yesterday they each taped a Valentine to Caleb's crib and sang "Happy Valentines Day to you!" Caleb is teaching us how wonderful it is to find the joy in each day and live in the present.
I was visiting with my mom recently, and we were discussing whether or not Caleb can see out of his sweet little eye. We both agreed that it didn't matter because Caleb can truly "see" more than we can. My mom later shared a scripture she found in Matthew 6:22
"The light of the body is the eye: if therefore thane eye be single, thy whole body shall be full of light."
I found a similar scripture in D&C 88:67
"And if your eye be single to my glory, your whole bodies shall be filled with light, and there shall be no darkness in you; and that body which is filled with light comprehended all things."
We are so thankful for our little miracle. The overwhelming love we feel for him gives us just a glimpse of the way that our Heavenly Father loves us. The tenderness of knowing our time with him will be limited is also surrounded by so much sweetness. I wish there was a "heart language" that could portray the sweetness that surrounds us as we watch our 3 boys love each other, as we feel Caleb's sweet little body in our arms, and as we feel the love that has filled our home to overflowing.
Thank you for "loving our little boy into being here" Thank you for loving our little family and our little Caleb. He is full of love and light!
Thursday, February 3, 2005
Caleb's four week birthday!
(from my journal)
...Happy four week birthday, Caleb! We hung a Happy birthday sign over your crib today You were visited by 4 of my aunts and they brought you a special window box where we can display your special things....I am so humbled as I whitness the way that you touch hearts and change lives everyday. You have united our entire ward and extended family. You have taught us what perfect love feels like. I watch the way people linger at your crib side and don't want to leave your presence...
Shortly after Caleb was born, a sweet friend from our ward came over to take a family picture of us. It was really important to me to have a family picture with all of my little boys since we don't know how long we get to have Caleb with us.
...Happy four week birthday, Caleb! We hung a Happy birthday sign over your crib today You were visited by 4 of my aunts and they brought you a special window box where we can display your special things....I am so humbled as I whitness the way that you touch hearts and change lives everyday. You have united our entire ward and extended family. You have taught us what perfect love feels like. I watch the way people linger at your crib side and don't want to leave your presence...
Shortly after Caleb was born, a sweet friend from our ward came over to take a family picture of us. It was really important to me to have a family picture with all of my little boys since we don't know how long we get to have Caleb with us.
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