March

I've decided to like March. It has Spunk.
In one moment we see snow,

and in the next we see blooms.

I think it's the sparkle in the snow

that reminds Spring flowers
there is just enough sunshine
to keep growing.

Tinsel Time

The other day I put Caleb in his chair with some tinsel in his lap to touch.
When I came back to check on him
he was holding one hand HIGH in the air!
Do you know what that means?
He didn't want to touch it!
He had his own little opinion!
I watched him slowly lower his hand until it touched the tinsel again.
Up went the hand
then back down again
until he decided maybe it was okay to touch after all!

On purpose

Tonight as I was caring for Caleb,
he woke up and smiled!
Then he reached out to me
with one arm and hand
ON PURPOSE!
I know it!
It wasn't a stretch.
It wasn't seizure activity.
He was trying to touch me.
And he did.
In more ways than one.

What could have been

When we were expecting Caleb, we knew he would have significant challenges. We knew he might not be born alive. When he was, we were hurried out of the NICU so that he could die at home. Our hearts were broken as we contemplated losing our baby boy, and we knew each day we had was a precious gift.
Because we've been so worried about losing him, we haven't mourned what could have been for Caleb. He could have quickly returned to heaven, but instead he has quietly brought heaven to us.
It is okay that he has a special body.
His presence...is enough.

I love you my angel boy.

Handshake

As Matthew snuggled with Caleb in his bed tonight, he turned to me and said,
"Me and Caleb have a special handshake."
Then he showed me how he wrapped his hand around Caleb's and shaped it into a little fist. Then he put his finger into the little hole in the middle so Caleb could hold it.
I don't know why that made me cry.
But it did.
After his demonstration, Matthew pulled the covers around them both and fell asleep.
That made me cry, too.

Dozy and Cozy

Caleb's been hibernating for the past few weeks. I'll bet it won't be long before he wakes up from his Winter nap to enjoy the Spring!

Shhh...

Preschool

Caleb started receiving preschool services at our home this week! He qualifies to attend the special needs preschool at our local elementary school, but he is too medically fragile to attend. So, we've recently been able to arrange for a preschool teacher to come to our home twice a week to do preschool with him. We are truly blessed to have a wonderful vision therapist and preschool teacher who take the time to love and teach our sweet boy.

Such a sweet little face...