Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Outside and inside smiles

I remember a conversation I had with a dear friend while I was expecting Caleb. We were discussing his physical challenges, and we were talking about how we hoped he would be "able to smile back." I thought I could be brave about almost anything, but I worried it might break my heart if he couldn't smile back at me.

Caleb can't always smile back.
But when he does, his smiles are glimpses into heaven. They rarely happen on demand. They are usually too fleeting for me to catch on film, but they often appear in those moments when I need reassurance the very most.

I think about that conversation often. "I hope he can smile back..." And now that I have a child who can't always smile back, I've learned that smiling is something that comes from inside. Caleb's smiles are felt more than seen.
Even when I can't always see them on the outside,
I can feel them from the inside.
And that's just as special.

Dear Caleb,
I'm so thankful for your sweet smiles-The outside ones and the inside ones. They are both a miracle to me. Thank you for giving me a glimpse of heaven. Love,
Mom






12 comments:

Anonymous said...

Lovely post!~

Junior said...

Beautiful post, Caleb has such a precious smile.

Candace said...

Thank you, Lord, for his beautiful smile! He is so darlin' and what a smile...

The Five Jacksons said...

What sweet pictures - they gave me goose bumps! Thanks for sharing. Your blogs touch my heart.

Devon said...

What a great post. I love Caleb's smile!!

Tara Bennett said...

He is so special and also very lucky to have such an amazing mama who can understand his messages from heaven.

Emily said...

Great post! Those smiles melt my heart!

Becky said...

I fall in love all over again every time I see him! :) His smiles are SO precious...seen and unseen. Thanks for sharing him and for sharing your heart. I love you April. xoxo

Becky said...

ps: that first picture is my all-time favorite. :)

Janene Baadsgaard said...

Caleb's smiles are truly a glimpse into heaven.

Lisa Christine said...

This post was the perfect way to end my day. He truly does give us a glimpse of heaven through his smile. Thanks for sharing!

Mama Up! said...

Somehow I found my way to your blog and I just wanted to say that Caleb's smile was beautiful and made me smile today, so he's still changing the world!